Trying to Believe....

Our judge did not follow through with her commitment on Monday. We found out late Monday that she didn't come into work that day so we needed to wait for today to see what she would do. The call came today saying that she changed her mind again and is requesting an official letter from the US Embassy verifying that the FBI clearance is the highest level of security in the United States. Her meeting with the representative from the Embassy was not sufficient.

We are crushed, stunned, disappointed, frustrated....completely broken hearted. I wrote a letter today imploring the Embassy for help in this matter. Our hands feel so tied...

I have sat and tried to find insight into her perspective...does she know that this little girl has spent way too many days, weeks, months, years in an orphanage without a family? Does she have any idea of how great our love is for this little girl? Does she have any idea that we would do anything within our own physical power to bring her home? Does she realize our hearts have a huge hole in them filled with the grief of not having her home yet? If only I could get her to understand this...then maybe she would not do this to us or to any other family ever again.

I know I have to believe that the time will come. She will be ours. I need to stay strong and keep my faith. I know my faith is there, but it feels like it is in a million pieces around me. I keep getting back up and putting it back together, but then the next wave of emotion comes and knocks it all down again. But, I'm going to keep picking up the pieces and I am going to keep trusting the Lord and believing He will bring Selah home. I am going to praise Him for all the blessings in my life and praise Him for showing me the true heart of adoption...showing me a love that I never understood before...giving me a glimpse of the love He has when He adopts us into His family. It is a powerful love. It is a love that can move mountains and that is the promise I am going to hold onto...and never let go.

Lori

One More Week of Believing in Faith…

My dear friend, Col, was here with me today when we received the telephone call. She has shared in this journey even before ours began. The adoption of her little girl moved not only mine, but my husbands heart to a place of hearing God's call on our lives to adopt. She is guest blogging for me today because she knows my brain is too scattered to pull things together for a while yet and I just knew she would be able to convey our hearts without skipping a beat!

Today’s call was not exactly the call Lori and Bryan were hoping for… but they are fixing their eyes of faith on the light at the end of this tunnel. The judge in Bulgaria committed to approve Selah’s adoption on Monday. Yes, six more days of waiting in hope and trusting in God’s faithfulness until she is officially Selah Schumaker.


One highlight of the call is that the Monday after that (2/28), her birth certificate will be issued, which is an exciting change from what they had been told before. Birth certificate wait time used to be two to three weeks. Travel should be scheduled one to two weeks from February 28th.

As a friend who has traveled the adoption journey, I simply cannot imagine the ache that Lori and Bryan and their boys have walked… wanting their little girl home so desperately and yet living the challenge of a system that at times seems set against this princess’s new life in her forever family. Surely, many of you have struggled like the Schumakers when God’s timing just does not seem to make sense at all. We believe with all that we are the Truth found in His Word that says His ways are higher, yet everything inside us sometimes cries out for things to move along!

I think about a verse in Job. It’s 23:10. Check it out. After countless struggles and so much frustration, Job says, “But, He knows the way I take; and when He has tested me, I will come forth as gold.” Bryan and Lori have had an adoption journey like no other. They have been tested and tried, and tested again. And each of us who loves them has been challenged by their unyielding faith and humbled by their relentless pursuit of a little girl who sits today in an orphanage in Bulgaria. I look at them, and I see gold. Pure gold. They are a living testimony of God’s love… it never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

So, today we stand again with the Schumakers. We pray and cry out for the next six days. We believe with them that in six days a little girl’s name will be changed. And not just her name, but her destiny. We long for the moment when we can rejoice together that our girl is coming home to be loved and treasured by so many of us.

And we will give our God, who makes all things right, and who’s timing is perfect, all the glory.

Coleen